Seems like months go by so fast. I haven't worked on my site that much since last month, but thats ok. I feel like im in spot where I need to learn more about css & design. I think when I learn more, that will help me. To be honest, I feel I have been trying to work on my site by researching / and I think if I just knew more it would help me in the long run instead of constantly googling and trying to understand css snipets when I don't quite even understand all of it. ill make a collection of sites / tutorials that would be helpful for me.
but ya.. just something I need to do, so im able to do more with designing pages.
ive been feeling apathic recently. I find myself not really caring about what people have to say to me. I just kinda hope they just finish what they talk about. I don't even really have the excitement for things I enjoy either.
I feel a lot better now. I saw some really close friends and family over the weekend and that really helped me alot. I did get in a big fight with my sister, and in the moment I was so angry. So angry that I was refusing to talk to her. But, we were able to make up. I got mad bc we were kayaking and she wouldnt wear her lifevest. She isnt a very strong swimmer so I wanted her to wear it. But I also realized that shes an adult now, and if she wants to not wear it, I cant force her. its frustarting bc I want her to be safe, but I also need to respect her (unsafe) choices haha. Felt good to move my arms and kayak. Its such a fun group activity to do, and a good workout. I wish I kayaked more, its just a lot of work to set up for it. I think i might buy my own though, it be nice to have. renting kayaks costs like 60~ dollars so I feel like using it 3 times will pay for itself. Plus I do have friends with trucks, so maybe planning a kayak day with them would work.
I also went to the renfair. It was so wet and rainy, my boots got caked in mud. but also very cool weather. Normally its just so hot. Its fun to eat the food, enjoy the live theatre, and see the cool artistic shops. It makes me want to create more things. Ive been thinking about trying to make chainmail. It seems like something that would be fun to do on a rainy day. My friend isn't so convinced we could do it, but I feel like if we get the right tools (and find the time) we could get started on it.